Month: December 2020

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Reflections

As busy working people, sometimes the only bit of respite you get is sitting on the pot. It sounds funny, but true. 

My journey to self-healing is something that I’ve kicked into high gear in this new year. While sitting in the bathroom, I’ve been reminded of situations in my marriage where I can see that the struggles were not wholly my fault.  Yes, I crossed the line and stepped out of the union because I felt trapped and manipulated. 

Self-reflection is a vital component of self-love. You must examine yourself to understand, accept, and live who you are and move forward. 

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What do you wish someone had done? What could anyone have done?

I wasn’t honest with my few close friends. I lived in silence of my disappointment in myself and my relationship.

I think that unless someone is ready to accept help, you can’t help them. You can only be there for them.

When I got caught in all of my lies, the physical abuse began. One of my girlfriends asked me if he put his hands on me. I was scared to speak up for many reasons; my own life, my children’s lives and what would happen to my ex-husband. The fact of the matter is that in my selfishness and narcisstic ways , I didn’t think of anyone else but myself.

I wish my family, even though I pushed them away tried harder to reach me. I wished that my girlfriend would have heard through my voice what I was going through.

In my case, there were signs for years, and I didn’t believe that things would end the way that they did.

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